Slacking.

Yes, lately I've been slacking around with work, house chores, and what nots. I feel demotivated about everything. I don't know why. Perhaps it's one of those phases where you just feel that you don't want to deal with anything else in the world and you just let it pass. Or perhaps I'm getting tired with routines, everyday doing the same thing over and over again. or... I don't know. Mood swings?

But each time when I realized that I'm slacking in everything, and when I'm trying to catch up with things, I had these thoughts that all those things are not in order or not done in a manner that it was supposed to be dealt with earlier and then I refused to deal with it. Not until the very last minute, then I'll practically have to drag myself to do it. Eventually. 

I know. Stupid and lazy right?

I hate coming to work and then saw piles of files and stack of papers lying around, which is actually the current state of my office. And then I came home and saw piles of unfolded clothes in the basket. Only clothes... which is not that much of a mess since I ain't got a lot of stuff in the house. Everything is so messy, not in order and unorganized. Blergh. I hate looking at it and I don't want to sort out everything back in it's place either.

Oh, speaking of which, the TV blew up last month. So the usual routine of coming home and switched the TV on is not a routine anymore. At home is just silence. and my laptop (thank god) and god knows what kind of sounds coming out of nowhere everyday... it's like a stomping sound... guess my upstairs neighbour like to stomp around in their house. Jalan macam biasa tak boleh ke? It's freaking annoying!

Gahh... all these blurting out... I think I'm not making any sense right now.

But, all in all, I'm not that depressed or whatever anything serious like that. It's just that I need a new something... new routine? new carpet? new TV (yes definitely), new book rack?

Perhaps I think I need a new me.

I wish today is Friday. It’s Friday, Friday. Got to get down on Friday. Everybody’s looking forward to the weekend, weekend.